We're painting the upstairs of the house. The plan is for us to move up from the basement apartment into the main house. And for grandpa to move down into the apartment. We're swapping spaces. The kids are cautiously excited about having their own rooms painted blue and purple at their request. We're going to… Continue reading New Beginnings
My birthday was yesterday. After coffee in bed from the children, I spent most of my day in a total fog. Unable to determine which way was up. Mid-afternoon I decided that we needed flowers for our birthday party. I walked into the flower shop and the first thing I saw was a bucket of… Continue reading Can’t stop the tears.
One of my children's favourite songs at the moment is Frozen's Let it go... although they sing it Letting go. While I'm not a huge fan of the movie the song hits home in so very many ways. I'm in the process of clearing out my mothers home. Boxes after boxes hold stories of a… Continue reading Letting go.
Grandma has a beautiful new home. It's made of hand carved wood. It has a beautiful dove ascending to heaven on it. Today that beautiful box is being buried. "Can I dig the hole mummy?" "No love, the cemetery people will dig the hole." "but I want to!!!" "Maybe you can help, or make it… Continue reading Grandma’s Box
We sat here in these chairs and talked for weeks about impending death. And now i sit here and your chair is empty. I've been looking at pictures of your life as we gather images for the funeral slide show, and i'm wondering who is this woman i'm looking at? I don't recognize her at… Continue reading Death
I read this article this morning: What is the best way to explain Death to a child? It was a nice clear read. Something I needed. I'm learning these days that I'm going to process my mothers' death through the eyes and experiences of my children. It will be my grief, but I am also… Continue reading Talk about it.